NEW JOB

Ok so I started a new position. And let me say it is a breath of fresh air. I finally have an office. I can lay out my stuff and lock it up. No more lugging my files back and forth because I dont want someone looking over them. I feel great!

I get sad when I go out to inspect and I see my housekeepers all sad missing me. If I could of held on to my position and stayed with my housekeepers, I would have definitely stayed with them.

It was a task getting them used to the way i wanted things to go. I had to fight everyday with someone. If it wasn't the fact that I was pushing the english issue they were fighting the change in standards that i was setting.

After it was all said and done, I created a nice bond with them. It was a long year, and I can't say that I enjoyed it all but I can say that I do truly miss actually being there for them.

Unfortunately, they have to deal with a manager that needs to get fired. I have no idea how or why she is still there. I couldn't change it and that is why i made the decision to make the change to remove myself.

Now I am happy. I want to go to work again. and the bonus is that my old manager now has to answer to me and I know that kills her inside. I have moved on and she can't make me feel like i may lose my job. I stopped wanting to work. I didn't care if I was on time or even there.

I was having anxiety attacks and just didn't want to move.

Now I can start fresh. I have opened the doors to a new adventure. And i know that good things will come eventually. I just have to have patience.

Looking forward

I always find myself content with  the current. Never looking forward. I have no problem looking backwards, so why can't I look forward. My husband always looks forward. He says "Just because I think we have something we don't." Meaning just because I see we got a few bucks in the bank, doesn't mean I need to spend it. We need to keep a saftey net.

I am the complete opposite. I feel like we need to worry about now and not later. I have learned these past couple of years that his statement is oh so true.

Had I let him create that nest egg, a lot of the things I went thru would have never happened. I really miss my house. I am not used to living in cramped quarters and it pains me that I can't afford to move us back into what we are used to.

I know that eventually, change will come and we will get our life back to how it was. I just have to learn that looking forward is whats best. I am trying. Its a task but I will make it happen.

Unfortunate event!

Well here I sit, thinking to myself if i really want to do this whole blog thing. I really don't know where to start or what I should say. I guess whatever comes to mind would be great.

So yesterday I found out a cousin was stabbed 8x with a slash to the back of his neck. Unfortunately he didn't make it even an hour after surgery. Another life taken, for what? I just dont get it. If you gotta fight, fight! No guns, no knives, no bats or clubs. Just ya fists!

I don't care what kind of life a person leads, no one deserves to have their life taken by another. I really hope the police in this valley really try hard to find the killers. Yes killers! They revealed that the stab wounds came from different knives. How crazy is that? So it wasn't good enough for one person to stab him, others had to join in to make sure he was a "dead man."

I am gonna stop my rant for now. Considering this is my first, I think I did ok. Hopefully this will allow me to tap into my creative side.

always keeping it 100,

Chanel